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I had plans to go out today, but something happened (I'm not quite sure) and so I ended up staying home. All is good because I took a good nap, and I went to see Insidious yesterday, so overall it's been a pretty good weekend. When I went to see Insidious I made a personal note to myself to watch everything, "Do not cover your eyes, just enjoy it." The thing about me is that when I watch scary movies I miss the scary parts (on purpose) because I'm just that much of a punk. It's not that hard, when that eery, creepy music starts playing, cover your eyes. When a person is looking at themself in the mirror and they're about to close it, cover your eyes. When it's offly quiet and you expect something to happen, cover your eyes. When it's night and they show the house all dark, cover your eyes. When something moves all of a sudden, cover your eyes. So, when I watch scary movies, I remove the scariness of it, so overall it would be a pretty happy movie for me, and that's how I can sleep that night after watching it. UNFORTUNATELY, I decided to not cover my eyes ( but I did, on some parts). For being PG-13, it's a really good movie! I enjoyed it very very very much, though towards the end it starts to get a little fake and I'm just like really? I also noticed something, when I get scared I don't yell or scream I just put my head on the other person's shoulder and I cover my eyes. I cannot count how many times I did that last night. But, I would pay to watch that movie again.

So, since I have nothing to do. I'm gonna blog!

it's quite funny that the Red Sox's first win is against the yankees

finally beginning to enjoy this year

Okay seriously WHAT THE FUCK IS UP with these damn Red Sox? They predicted that weeeee were the best team in MLB. What the fuckety fucking fuck? Maybe because its the beginning of the season but OMG! not cute. But, I love you guuuyz.

personal

This is really personal, but I'm seriously considering the skinny girl diet which is sticking to the rule that you cant eat more than 300-400 calories a day & exercise, of course.

I don't know.

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build a bridge and get over it

So, now, I'm feeling better thanks to my mother (surprising), and two other people. I don't know who I'm going to prom with, but rejection is life, and life isn't fair, so what can you do? I might go with a group of friends or just by myself, I'm just not sure. If somebody ends up asking me, which I highly doubt (not being pessimistic, but realistic), then depending on who that person is, I'll decide. One, my dress is TOO glamorous to be ruined by a guy who does not look good in a tux. And if you don't look good in a tux it must be that something is really wrong with you. Two, I thought about it, but I don't want to really be tied down by one person. Instead, I wanna have fun, dance with friends, be carefree. I don't think that'll happen with a clingy date. Whyyyyyyy am I so technical? Whooo cares, I'm gonna have fun and that's all that matters.

And, after ignoring it for a lonnnnng while, I seriously don't understand why you miss me. I think it's just your mood swings, and when you just need a person there. But, seriously, I'm not gonna think of reasons why you do because--it's not that I don't care, but I'm just tired of the same things. I don't know, nothing makes sense when I write, nothing makes sense in my mind either. But, yeah, I don't understand. I don't like blogging about you which is why I don't do it very much and, frankly the only thing I care about is your kids because I know they're so important to you. But, like you said to me, I'm here as well.

I literally lasted 42 minutes looking for something to wear and I ultimately ended up deciding on something so casual! Then I spent 18 minutes deciding on whether I should switch bags or not, which I did. It's seriously stressful looking for clothes. I look the best when I feel the worst, so tomorrow I'm definitely looking hot!

there's just so much I have to say!

You know, it sucks being right all the time. I mean, just once someone should prove me wrong, but whatever. Hope this teaches you a lesson. I didn't go out tonight since I've gone out every Saturday for about a while now. And, I decided to stay in my cozy home the whole night. I didn't go out today except early in the afternoon when I went shopping with my mother, and *drum roll please* I finally got the dress! It wasn't that pricey, just $140 which is minuscule compared to the prices of dresses I was looking at online. I'm a bit tentative about putting a similar dress up here, but whatever. It looks somewhat like this:

On the hanger it looked pretty ugly and stuff, and I was like EH, let me just give this a try so I tried it on along with the other million and millions of ugly dresses my mom wanted me to try on. I didn't tell her of course, but they were all so figure unflattering. To be honest, when I tried that dress on I was like, 'oh no' for some reason, but then when I saw myself in the mirror I was more like 'oh okay' and then lady next to me said I looked beautiful, she said I had an hourglass figure, I started to come around *tries not to blush* and now I just love it! OH there's something important I ave to mention! Its not pink lol, its like this creamy, off-white, bone color, sort of beige, which is perfect because it contrasts my skin beautifully, besides the fact that it hugs my curves perfectly which is why it makes me have that hourglass figure. Oh another important thing! It doesn't have those jewels at the top, instead it has them at the top of the waist, to emphasize it. I LOVE THIS DRESS.

Okay so last night:

I really should have blogged about this last night because I remembered perfectly then, but now somethings are a blur. So I went over to his house at like around 8ish I think. He lives literally a block away which is perfect. When he opened the door I was attack by his fluffy dog called Buddy. OMG scariest thing ever HE JUMPED ON ME AHH! And all he said was 'dog' quiiiiiiiietly when he opened the door, like really could you have said it any louder before you opened the door?! His mom is sooo cute and soo cool. So we went upstairs to the attic where his room is and he gave me the cheesiest tour of his room, it was funny. We just watched movies and cuddled and ate pizza, it was cute :D But, um, I didn't ask him to be my prom date because I'm a punk. Certified punk. OOOOH! Talking about certification, guess who's an EMT?!!?!?!

You can find me, if you ever want again. I'll be around the bend, I'll be around..

i notice i have more guy-friends than girl friends

current mood:

:) yet :/ because I am SO confused! I wish I knew what people were thinking. I'll write about what happened tonight later, tomorrow, or some other time.

I'm going prom dress shopping tomorrow, but I've already got my mind set on this one dress that I absolutely positively love! Choosing a dress is harder than I thought, and my picky-ness does NOT help the situation at all. I can just wonder how hard it's going to be wedding dress shopping. Hmmmmmmm...

Goodnight my darling Blog <3