Thursday, March 25, 2010


so i saw this
"i want to be your favorite hello & your hardest goodbye."
.edge the on already we're think i and

Monday, March 22, 2010


If I had a chance to explain competition in just one word I'll say. . .hmmm unexpected? I fell asleep then I was awaken by my friend & Chris. But then I fell asleep quickly, thank God. I woke up at like around 4:30ish..err no. My grandma woke me up at like 4:20ish but I got kinda mad cuz I wanted to sleep those 10 more minutes SO I did :) I got to school and it was dark out & kind of cold but we were waiting for the school bus to get here so we could go to the OTHER school where the competition was being held.

That place was pretty far. Talk about TWO and a HALF hours sitting in an uncomfy seat in a bus. I had to readjust my butt like every five minutes. We went all the way to South Jersey, pretty much border line Philadelphia because it was right next door! But down there all you see is farms&farms&farms..I seriously didn't know there were farms in New Jersey O.o The school was so dull and boring and depressing..really.

Fast forward to competition. There was a guy in there that won first place in nationals so I was intimidated! And there was some other guy who's done this for three years & he looked pretty confident. There were others there too and they looked ready as well, about 10/11 of us. Last competition was a spelldown, so I automatically new if I made it or not. But for this competition, we had to take a written test, so I had to wait from about 11 ish to 2:30pm to know if I made it or not. The anticipation was killing me! I was SOOO nervous! The test wasn't SO hard but it wasn't SO easy either, so I had no clue! So, come 2:30 my heart was in my throat, that's where I felt it! They began with 5th place...some guy/girl..then 4th place...some guy/girl from another school. Before they said your name, they said you're school. But there was some guy & me from the same school competing in the same thing. So technically, I had NO idea if it was going to be him or me. Come 3rd place, they say our school..and I grabbed my friend that was next to me. When they said my name...O M G! I was like whaaaaaaaaaaaaat?! On stage, I was in freaking disbelief, I seriously couldn't even talk I was like "omg. omg. omg. omg. omg. omg."

Second place was the guy that supposedly won first place in nationals! He was sooooo bigheaded! You should've seen the way he walked up to the stage like he's somebody. First place was the guy who's been doing this for 3 years, he's cool :) The funny thing is that I beat him at last competition because he was either fourth/third place and I was second! SO! I could beat him in actually spelling but he beat me in the test. And in nationals, it's a mixture of both, along with everybody from every state! Awesome! To tell you the truth, I don't really care if I don't win at nationals, I just want to go to Orlando! :D

So that sums it pretty much. Won third place!

Saturday, March 20, 2010

hey soul sister

okaaaay. I'm very scared about competition tomorrow. I have to get my sleep because I have to be there by 5:30 AM. But it's really sinking in now that I have to deff make it in the TOP THREE places in order to move on. Pressure much? What makes this competition different than last is that coming in to last comp. I was careless; I didn't study, I didn't care, I was thinking of quitting, and I basically put all these obstacles in my way. Back then, I had to be in the TOP FIVE places to move on and now it's so much different. I thought, "Let me just do this, I have nothing to lose, I know I'm gonna get no where." I was hoping and praying in that room that I at least make top five. And I did, and I was SO HAPPY! Thanks to all the encouragement from teachers and friends and family, I was able to do it! This time around, I DID study/practice, I DO care, I'm DEFF NOT thinking of quitting, and yet I'm still putting obstacles in my way. I just want to clear my head of all these useless things that only add stress. Also, I have to be top three and that adds even more pressure! I'm trying not to think about my family problems, friend problems, grades in school, or Chris problems(he has a category on his own). I'm going to spend my last hour or so studying before I sleep and compete the next day. I'm going to get as much rest as I can, wake up feeling happy, compete, and have fun! Hopefully, I'll be either First, Second or Third, and I'll be going to Orlando in June.

I love you blog.

“These things I have spoken to you, so that in Me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world.” John 16:33

Friday, March 19, 2010


all these love posts make me sick

Thursday, March 18, 2010


Chris is being an ass.
He fell asleep before me &&& he knows I can't sleep after he's asleep.
Not cute Chris.
Though it felt nice to hold you <3
STILL not cool.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

sam worthington :D

i LOVE Avatar!
Sexy blue people!
Especially that guy right there :)

Thursday, March 11, 2010


just really beyond upset right now...ugh!

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

let's give each other mouth-to-mouth.

thought this was
interesting. it's birdcages holding louis vuitton bags. creative eh? unfortunately, people were sitting and talking by it and they're in the pic, and so am I. since I stood by them to take the pic they thought i was listening to their convo. um, no. bags were more interesting than they're convo. if it WAS really interesting, i would've remembered what it was they were talking about. . .ahaha <3