Saturday, July 31, 2010

oooo ooo oooo


i hate paid programming!

omG! I have so much to blog about I dont even know where to start! I'm pretty darn obsessed with tumblr! i.cant.get.enough. It's just so darn friendly! Ok ok, I haven't done shit. Like all the books I have to read and stuff? Haven't even finished ONE! And I have a month to go, btw. UGH UGH UGH, MY LIFE!
Anyways, it's 2:43 am and my neighbors are LOUD. Ok, I get it's friday and all, but you can take your damn hookah/marijuana/drinking party inside! I don't wanna hear you and I dont wanna get high either..if it's possible to get high even though I'm not near them. By the way, I don't like my neighbor. You know those people that are old, with kids, and REFUSE REFUSE to age with decency..that's HER. Can you stop freaking partying and shit? Have you got no fucking brains? You've got a kid, are you not embarrassed by the way you act in front of him? Oh, and while you're at it, would you stop fucking my cousin. K, thanks. I mean, I think she's the one who messed up my dad...more than he already was. After he started hanging out with her, she introduced him to some of her friends, and he's been playing my mom with them. She turned him into what she is: he refuses to fucking age! He has young friends and he's been working out like a damn crackhead all the time. Do you want to be effin anorexic? Cuz, you're on your way...he's not even fat! He's just a muscular guy..what more do you want to lose? And then he starts putting his losing weight pressure on me..and everything goes downhill from there. Oh! And now he's 'supposedly' planning to go to Miami with his friends and shit. ARE YOU TWENTY-ONE? Nevermind the fact that he didn't even invite us cuz that's pretty predictable..but really? What are you gonna do? Go clubbing? Make out with girls half your age? Get drunk? Do stupid stuff teenagers would do? Wait, I don't even know what they find fun in you though! When you're here you're a party pooper. Complaing about everything. You don't want anybody making noises or being loud. And now you're the life of the party, eh? Wish you luck.

Another thing that's on stupid facebook is shoutout videos. REALLY? You're gonna make a video to shout out people? How RIDICULOUS is that? I mean, I get the shouting out in a video if the video is about something else..but a video JUST FOR THE SOLE PURPOSE of shouting out?! Lame, why do I even have these wack people as friends anyway? GET AWAY.

Something I found out! If you go to google, type in 'lol limewire' and then click 'i'm feeling lucky' the funniest thing will pop out! That definitely would make ANYONE'S day, for shizzle!

I've been enjoying photography like no other. Chris, buy me a professional photography camera, like Nikon or something. Pleeeeease?

My day at the park was okay...did two laps around :) one i walked, the other i ran/jogged. I don't know how to jog, I'm weird. I always speed up and act like someone/something is chasing me. I can't ever take it slow and jog correctly. Anyway, after I went to my mom bro and sis..and the little ones were getting wet...they have these fountain type things and you can get under them and get wet and all..they had fun. My sister she filled a bottle with water...took it to the little playing gym thingy whatever, she wet the slide with the water, slides down and then says "water slide" ahaha! How smart/cute/funny/adorable. hehe!

AND i'll leave you, my darling blog, on a funny note:

"you need to hide your kids, hide your wife, hide your husband..."

So darn ghetto!

Thursday, July 29, 2010

really high up anus.

--why is it that when my room gets really hot, i turn the AC on and after 5mins its FREEZING in here! So then I get up and turn it on again..i'ts a damn cycle and I'm hot.
--i made a tumblr, yess. I love tumblr really. It's pretty addicting and everyone's friendly and everyone follows you. It's awesome. Dont be jealous, blogger, you would ALWAYS have a place in my corazon. It really isnt for long blogs, like this. So I'm deff keeping this, just deleting the other one. I love you Blogger.
--I FIXED MY LAPTOP. OMG, YES! All by myself :) I'm so proud of myself, GOOGLE HELPS!! I can't depend on my cousin for it, so iiiiiii did it!
--MY dad came today. I swear all he talked to me about was me 'losing my shape' and me getting fat and how fat i am and shit. My mom was totally behind it too. She's such a two-faced hypocrite. She talks all this crap about him behind his back and when he's here she's like fucking goo-goo ga ga over him. STFU already, i started exercising today, happy?
im tired of this effin look of my blog. too damn fruity.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Sooo fucking upset. People just don't fucking now to be fucking grateful. Regret that last post. Can't stress the fact of how alone I really am. How I love life. I regret ever meeting you.


I don't know. I don't think I'll ever be fully happy probably until I've been on my own, doing things I like to do, and when I'm finally face-to-face with you.

Monday, July 26, 2010

On LOWcacation! yeaaah

Im thinking about quitting blogger
and making a tumblr. It's way better, quicker and artsy-ish. The only 'bad' thing is that I wont have really long blogs like I do here. (first i was watching the dew tour..pretty cool skateboarding. Now i'm watching Kim Possible..omg i loved this show! Especially Ron & Rufus..they barely give it anymore :(..they pretty much play retarded shows which is why I dont watch disney channel anymore) K, anyways. I might switch to tumblr..if not i'll just delete my other blog and use tumblr for that one. Yeah, that sounds better.

Day 13 – This week, in great detail

This week was alright, busy wise. Monday-Thursday I had that Nurse Camp. Monday, my mom and I went through the wrong entry and we pretty much went around half the school and still we couldn't find the hall we were supposed to be at. Then she started blaming me, it's all my always. Then, I just couldnt take it anymore so I just told her to leave me at the campus police station and that I'll find my way around. So, I went in, I asked, and they told me where to go. Surprisingly, my mom was she took me to the right entry. The whole day was sssslllooooooooooow! So was Tuesday..just pretty much lectures and stuff. I passed my CPR test! Woot! So I pretty much have 2 certifications..the first time I passed it with an 85..this time I passed it with a 100! The test that I really need to pass is my written test for driving. BLAH!

Wednesday & Thursday were the best. We had clinicals! Wed we went to the hospital and thurs we did home care. What I liked about Thursday was the lecture after. This RN that worked in Labor & Delivery pretty much talked to us. It was the most interesting lecture and I adored it! And when I'm a nurse, I want to have the chance to work there. The thing is that it's pretty tough to get in to that section of the hospital. And maybe I'll have to work as a staff nurse first THEN make my way up there. That really brought me down :( ..but if you want something you're gonna have to work for it, right? So that's what I'm gonna do. I'm gonna be great thru college, take my certification test, then start to work :) hopefully i'll work in Labor & Delivery :)

Saturday, July 24, 2010

Red red red lucious lipppps..muah!

SO Sorry! Oh, my dearest blog, I've missed you. ahaha I've been pretty busy with the nurse camp I was in but now it's over! I met pretty cool people and I've never been more positive about something in my life, but...I want to be a nurse. Yes, an RN. yesss! I'm so excited for myself, it's pretty darn hilarious. This is the whole break down, yo! It usually takes about 4 years..the four years in college to graduate with a bachelors degree of Science in Nursing. After that, I have to figure out where I'm gonna live (pretty much)so I can take the certification test at the state where I want to live. But in some states, you can pass the certification. Like if I am certified as an RN to practice nursing in a state, other states MAY allow me to just pass the certification without having to pay or take the test again...or..something like that. But yeah, I can get a job for a couple of years, then depending on how my life is, I can go back to get my masters. I am such a nerd. See how I'm planning out my life without even knowing anything?

Anyway, back to the whole daily blog things.....

Day 12 – What’s in your bag, in great detail
For the summer, I usually use lighter bags not big ones and I avoid leather bags too. My current bag is pretty small and it's a shoulder bag. So it don't stuff it with things like I usually do with the bigger bags so's all just junk

this is what's in my bag :)
-a whole bunch of papers
-a little alcohol packet for disinfecting and weird o.O
-bracelets..the colorful ones I got from Disney World :)
-my ring..its colorful
-my lip balm
-my wallet..filled with change, yesss
-my cousin's headphones -_-

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Gracias, gracias.

Day 11 – Your siblings, in great detail

Majority of my close family (my mom's side) lives in DR. I know a handful of people from my dad's side and they live in NY and DR. Besides my parents, my grandma, sister, brother, and cousin live with me. I really don't feel like going into detail but I love them all even though they have their moments.
---------------------------------------------------------------------i think I've blogged about this a long long time ago. But today I ran into this online, again. It's a menstrual cup. Yes, a cup. According to wikipedia, "A menstrual cup is a type of cup or barrier worn inside the vagina during menstruation to collect menstrual fluid. Unlike tampons and pads, the cup collects menstrual fluid rather than absorbing it.

Looks rather uncomfy:

yes yes yess. it does.


Day 10 – What you wore today, in great detail

i was wearing this tank top today w/o these colors though. My colors were: red, turquoise, yellow, black, white, gray and a little green. I know the colors sound a little crazy but the tank top is pretty hot and it's pretty bright too :) i'll take a pic when my phone decides to charge.

my shorts were very very similar to these. The only thing different was that they were blue jeans..but the buttons and everything were the same. I really love these shorts and these were my shoes. the exact same ones. they're my gladiators :) i love love love these

shoes ahhh!

And that's all i wore, not so complicated eh?

Saturday, July 17, 2010

if only. ONLY...

Day 09 – Your beliefs, in great detail
& things that inspire me

Friday, July 16, 2010

it's shareable.

ahahahahah! i like this font! it's ridiculous!
Anyways, new look. I can't say I love it...I actually think it's too bubbly and cute for me. But whatever...
Day 08 – A moment, in great detail

Hmmm. When I was younger, like age 5 or 6ish I had this bump on the side of my leg and I had to get it checked up just to see if it was benign or cancerous. The doctors tell me that it isn't cancerous but I had to get it removed anyways. I remember majority of the surgery...I was in this chair but it was reclined back and my leg was up on something. The bump was dotted so the doctor could know precisely where to cut and I was given anesthesia. didn't exactly work because I felt the sensations of everything going on on my wasn't a good surgery experience overall. What made it even worse is that by the next couple of days the stitches became loose and that cut was WIDE open and I could see inside was all pinkish and gooey. This was back when I was living in DR and health care over there isn't great SO I had to head out there with my mom AT NIGHT looking for a hospital so SOME ONE could stitch me back up...horrible experience. This ALWAYS always always made me cry cuz I suffered so much and it's interesting how I remember SO much and I was so young! It didn't make me cry this time which is good. I still have that scar on the side of my looks like a spider :). It isn't so bad it's just there. I used to be SUPER self-conscious about it and I NEVER EVER used to wear shorts or skirts. But now I've just come to accept it cuz it's part of me..and alot of people find this story quite interesting.

So that's my moment...well moments :)


Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Diamonds falling down!!

that last post was distasteful. bleghh.

Day 07 --Your best friend, in great detail

I've been through my share of best friends, currently I have none, except Chris but he doesn't count. That's why I blog right? I have no one to tell all my things to and to just vent..pathetic isn't it? The firstest (is that a word?) friend I had was a friend who lived downstairs from me in my old old house, well apartment. I dont even remember her name or anything. All I remember is going down to her house sometimes and going to her party at Chuck E. Cheese's. That was the first time I went SUPER EXCITING! Anyways, that's all I remember really..I don't even remember my age, I was yoooung. I dont remember how our friendship ended, I guess it was just cuz I moved. My next best friend was Cynthia (this was when I lived at my old house)..we were soooooo close. I would talk to her everyday, see her everyday, do things together everyday..we had soo much in common, my family loved her and her family loved me. There was a girl who lived a house away and she always wanted to be around us...we really didn't like her at all..and we spoke about her behind her back. I remember making plans with her to do something but Cynthia invited me someplace else and I totally stood the other girl up. I really regret all the things I did to her..I don't know what was up with me then, and I'm sorry..she actually just graduated from my school. But, yeah, me and Cynthia grew apart (we didn't exactly grow apart) she just changed into this completely different person after we started going to school together..and I just wasn't having it, so our friendship ended. Today, I don't really talk to her..she's my friend on Facebook but we haven't had a conversation. Before, we always said we needed to meet up at catch up..but it never happened.

My next best friend...i should say best friends! We were a group of five. OMG..I loved those girls! And I loved our class! We all went to dance class after school...meeen those were deff the days! Anyways, Only one of them goes to my school now and she went all strict and she's in ROTC. Another one moved after I moved and pretty soon she got pregnant by this guy and he ended up leaving her..i thought they were seriously in love. Another friend...ummm i dont even know much about her I just know she's pretty close to Cynthia yeah. And the last friend..I have no idea. It's actually kind of funny that I have them all on facebook but we dont say a word to each other. After I moved, and after the other girl moved after me..the friendship just crumbled.

My last best really hurt losing the friendship. We were the clooooosest and we had everything in common. She lives a couple blocks away..actually I saw her yesterday on my way to 'buy' the GPS. We just said hii. She went to my school for 2 years the got kicked out for bad behavior..she changed dramatically. I really don't like her! I REALLY DISLIKE THE GIRL!! But she applied again to my school and hopefully hopefully hopefully they dont accept her again! I don't really like wishing bad things on people but she doesn't even deserve to be in that school.. she's sooo annoying!

Sarah doesn't count cuz she's related.

And that's all. People just change for the worse and I distance myself from them. And really, I don't think I've changed at all.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

We go first to third baby!

well, since my boyfriend won't talk to me..i might as well do this.
I'm actually quite upset, as always.
Day 06 – Your day, in great detail

It's actually kind of funny that the day when I actually do something..this thing is telling me to write about it. Kay, so I got up early to go buy a GPS thing but they were pretty expensive so I called my mom n told her that and she said she was gonna buy it somewhere else. I pass by my favorite frozen yogurt store 16 Handles--SOOO good. Then went home. Pretty soon my mom came, gave me the GPS and I was supposed to set the directions and stuff..pretty confusing. Ugh i dont wanna blog. um we went to JFK pretty lost got the painting..went was a smoother ride back. Except that the GPS kept recalculating the route. now im watching the allstar game.yay.


him:first time in a LONNNG time that i dont have to question that n that its not in question about me
me:lol i dont get you
me:what you just said
him:its the first relationship that i didnt question about her lovin me n she didnt question me
me:thats happened before?
him:uh yea
me:like they've asked you if you love them
him:like they didnt believe me n i didnt believe them ya kno
me:oo ok ok
me:then what would be thepoint in bein in a relationship
him:i unno
him:like i loved kate there was no doubt about it but i was questioned her
me:you were questioned by her? or you were questioning her?
him:i questioned her
me:why did you
him:didnt trust her
me:oo ok
me:im glad that there's no questioning our love
him:not at all
me:i love you
him:i love you too

DAY 65248421--

Monday, July 12, 2010


Day 04 – What you ate today, in great detail

Not much, ithink. If i can remember...
-rice with those really thin thin thin steak things w/ salad
-like 5 mins after i ate salad again o.O
-ate like 3/4 of the heath klondike bars
-whole wheat bread w/ butter
-at this point i was really craving chinese food
-microwed baked potatoes mashed with butter and cheese (so the cheese melts while i mash) then i put a little bit of olive oil, vinegar and salt i ate this with a couple bites of the thin thin steak i ate for lunch (it had the fat gooey parts which i hatteeee) so i sliced some cheese n ate it with that.
-pear (it was really really bumpy for some reason)

That's what I ate :)

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Azure Mist

This came from my iPod notepad :)

Explaining my sudden love: it's not that I love you suddenly lol. Cuz that'll be kind of confusing, don't you think? Sort of like.."Whaaaat? You never loved me before?" But no, it's not that way. What I mean is that I have sudden gratefulness, I guess you could say. I'm just really happy that you're in my life sooooo happy. These past few years have been great and these past few days have been amazing lol. Aind it's just opened my eyes to how happy I am to be with you and just everything in our relationship. Lol this sounds as you would say "cheesy" but hey it's true. I love you. Alot Alot Alot, my prince charming. And hopefully you come with your shining armor and take me away to your lovely castle and we'll live happily ever after. Yeah, I know fairy tales don't really happen in real life but maybe just maybe with you fairy tales are possible.

-- O, and btw dont you like how I just mixed in two stories into one? The whole prince charming thing and the shining armor thing? KNIGHTS wear shining armor not the princes cuz they're too charming for that manly stuff.

-- O. and yeah, tooootallly took that pic and edited it. Looks pretty cool :) I love it.

sorry sorry sorry Milagros

Day 03 – Your parents, in great detail

umm. What can I say? Do I really have to talk about my parents? Blah. Ok, my mom's pretty cool, when she isn't annoying me or complaining about me or arguing with me or anything like that. My dad is OK. We don't really have a relationship, just a hi and bye thing. Yeahhhhh. I don't know what else to say about them, goodbye.

Friday, July 9, 2010

Signified Secrets

Day 02--Your first love, in great detail.

Believe it or not, my first love is actually my current boyfriend. He's the love of my life and he owns my heart. We've gone through a lot of things, A LOT. Even though it's long distance...the distance just makes us stronger and it makes it even more difficult to just drop everything and quit the relationship. That's what I think we have over relationships with people that see each other every day. It has been about 3 years since that day we met :) and we've been together for a year and about 5 months coming up on the 16th. I'll always love that kid with all my heart and I cant wait 'til we're together..'til we're sick of seeing each other every day! ha! I REALLY doubt that'll happen..REALLY DOUBT IT. But whatever, I love that kid..and no he's not a kid (far from it lol) He's a kid at heart. :) :) :)
I love you babyyyyyyyyyy.

Thursday, July 8, 2010

i sweeear it's you.

You take this hand
You take this heart
Steal my bones
From 1000 miles apart
Feels so cold
Felt just like its ten shades of winter
And i need the sun
um, yeah i love this band. they're like tied with the other band i posted a video for. This man, Ryan Tedder, is beyond amazing. The whole band is amazing. Love them <3


Ugh, I dislike blogging from my iPod. The reason being because it doesn't let me change font and so I'm stuck with this boring boring font. Bleeegh. Anyway, maybe I should start that thing now. Here I go!

Day 1-- Introduce youself.

I'm Nicky, for short. Though I really liked being called Nick only one person calls me that. Yeah I don't know, I think it makes me sound remotely interesting for a second, eh? I live in NJ, pretty much the "suburbs" of NY, if you ask majority of New Yorkers. Haha, they think we're country. But if you ask me, I really wanna get out of here! I really really love art. And some fashion, too. But I'm not a head over heels fashionista that practically LIVES off clothing. My boyfriend thinks I am though, but I'm not I swear. I take lots and lots and lots of pics of nature...on my phone. You know, the typical sunrise, sunset, trees, clouds, the sky. I think it's pretty awesome how beautiful it is. I'm saving up for a Nikon. Um, yeah, that's not going well. Cuz every single corner I turn, I'm buying something. If it's not clothes, it's PopTarts. Oh yeah, that's my newest thing PopTarts. I don't know, I always have something that I get stuck on. I remember it was cheese first, then something, then potatoes I think, now it's PopTarts. I can't get enought of them. Technically,I can't get enough of IT because it's only one flavor that I'm stuck on right now--brown sugar and cinammon, yessssss. I have a boyfriend who's pretty awesome. Long distance relationships are not something easy, but we're still holding on and going strong :). Lots of people say I'm smart. I don't think so, really. I think I just use common sense. I guess my common sense isn't so 'common' huh? Whatever. Lots of people say I'm funny too. Errr, I think I am. Lol, it just comes natural to me. I laugh at anything. I really can't stand much peoples BS that's why I keep many things to myself. I really want to get a hair cut. baaaaaad. It's summer vaca and what I've done is gone to Orlando...disney for a week. Didn't even go into the parks, FYI. and now all I've done is babysat and read. Greeeat summer vacation. I'm off. To bed. Too tired. G'night.

arches arches arches

Okay, so maybe i'll try this:

Day 01 – Introduce yourself

Day 02 – Your first love, in great detail

Day 03 – Your parents, in great detail

Day 04 – What you ate today, in great detail

Day 05 – Your definition of love, in great detail Day

06 – Your day, in great detail

Day 07 – Your best friend, in great detail

Day 08 – A moment, in great detail

Day 09 – Your beliefs, in great detail

Day 10 – What you wore today, in great detail

Day 11 – Your siblings, in great detail

Day 12 – What’s in your bag, in great detail

Day 13 – This week, in great detail

Day 14 – What you wore today, in great detail

Day 15 – Your dreams, in great detail

Day 16 – Your hobbies, in great detail

Day 17 – Your favorite memory, in great detail

Day 18 – Your favorite birthday, in great detail

Day 19 – Something you regret, in great detail

Day 20 – This month, in great detail

Day 21 – Another moment, in great detail

Day 22 – Something that upsets you, in great detail

Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better, in great detail

Day 24 – Something that makes you cry, in great detail

Day 25 – A first, in great detail

Day 26 – Your fears, in great detail

Day 27 – Your favorite place, in great detail

Day 28 – Something that you miss, in great detail

Day 29 – Your aspirations, in great detail

Day 30 – One last moment, in great detail

Starting tomorrow. Maybe I should start today? This looked pretty cool and it'll keep me blogging for 30 days, yes? K, bye.

Sunday, July 4, 2010

whaaaaaat? you need to learn how to propose darlinggg

Ok i got 4 out of 7 books yesterday and I'm not actually upset. These 4 books aren't so FAT and I think I'll get through them. The only thing is that I dont want to do the work i have to do AFTER. Anyways, that's not why I wanted to blog. The reason why I want to is to complain about humans. Like I always do lol. Ok so at Barnes & Noble, I'm standing in line, right? Just minding my business. Then I go to the cashier, she tells me its 55 and some change in all, so I give her my hundred. (Before I complain, I just wanna say that before this my mom was calling me hurrying me up cuz she was outside, so keep that in mind). Kay, so I see her feeling the 100 dollar touching it and stuff...I'm just thinking "ummmm okaaay. Why the hell are you rubbing it for?" Then she says "o i usually feel something in the 100 dollar bill, just to see if its real". I'm just thinking like..."nooooo of course its fake! I just made it a couple hours's that obvious huh?"
Then she puts it up to the light...and I dont know, she must have been blind. Then she calls the manager for the know those pens they write on bills with? Yeah that marker or pen or w/e ...while we're waiting for the damn manager she still repeats the same things over and over and over. Thank God I'm a nice person and I'm not like my mother who would've probably cursed her out by I just stand there. Mind you, my mom is still waiting outside..probably mad. So after the manager comes, in like 5 more minutes..get this: She brings the marker, puts the 100 dollar bill up to the light for barely 3 seconds and tells the cashier it's ok. WHAT THE FUCK? You last 10 mins trying to figure out if my money is fake and the manager comes and in three stupid seconds she figures out its ok! Are you kidding me?! Ugh, I was upset.

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Rob Thomas

maybeee someday we'll figure all this out.

Friday, July 2, 2010

i propose that we go to the flow, and slow dance

the Home Depot delivery people came a while ago. Mind you, THREE ADULT MEN and III was alone in my house. How delightful, huh? Not saying that they're undercover rapists and just waiting for a chance to molest an unsuspecting victim. NO. Just saying that I don't know who they are or what exactly they're capable of.

i need to fix my bed n get my books n i wanna go clothes shopping.
o n i need to get my bag

o! BLAH N GUH 4EVA ha!