Wednesday, June 29, 2011


It really sucks not being able to blog about something you really want to :(
But, whatever...

My house is too weird. Okay, first from my room in the middle of the night some days I hear this little girl scream, "Daddy!" She does this several times & I'm just too afraid to look out of the window..

And, now, while at my grandma's room I hear scratching noises in the ceiling, according to a website,
"Could be mice, rats, bats, opossums, or raccoons, all of which are nocturnal animals. The level of sound can be deceiving, depending on factors like acoustics or location. Sometimes rats can sound very loud, and raccoons quiet. This is where an inspection of the house and attic or crawl space will reveal what types of critters you're dealing with."

I don't know who's going to be crawling up in the attic and all, but it definitely WON'T be me...just putting it out there...

Saturday, June 25, 2011

can't feel my face

I don't think anyone in this earth blogs quite as much as I do. Nobody reads this anyway, so what the hell, its a venting mechanism. It is currently 5:22 am and I haven't been able to sleep specifically because I slept late today, like 1 pm late, and it has come to my attention that that's all I do during the weekdays: stay up really late, sleep until pretty late. But this all stops now, well at least ill try to stop it. I'm going to try to wake up moderately early and start my day: workout, eat good/healthy breakfast, take a shower, wash hair...look nice and presentable, something I've been lacking in. Waking up when half of the day is over won't be in my schedule anymore. Well, I hope it isn't. I should probably wake up at about 11:30 later because I still need some sleep.


I think majority of my friends can relate to my blog title. They're all leaving! Thursday, one of my closest friends left for college, I guess she's starting early, to finish early. Sent her a cute little farewell message :) Saturday, well today, in insomniac terms, my other close friend leaves for Rutgers for their summer program, I believe. Oh, she's gonna party it up over there once the school year starts as she's already crazy as it is. AND on Sunday, my other friend leaves to college for the summer program. Speaking about partying, we're gonna be partying it up tomorrow before her farewell. Which is weird because I haven't really been in the 'party mood' for a while, which is so not me because I'm borderline cray cray (crazy). I'm gonna miss these girlies dearly, I wish them the total best in college & all their future endeavors.

I was going to post some pictures, but the camera is in my mother's room & I don't feel like going as it is pitch black & accidentally bumping into something & waking up the whole neighborhood. I'll leave with these words for now...


Wednesday, June 22, 2011

this is probably going to kill me


Yesterday's horoscope fit me to a tee, and so here it is:

You don't give yourself enough credit, Virgo. You're naturally humble and probably soft-spoken, which may be why you aren't patting yourself on the back right now and blowing you're own horn. You've recently come through an ordeal with flying colors due to your diligence and integrity. You may not see it that way, though. You probably figure that you did because it was what was required of you. Nothing more and nothing less. That's a typically humble Virgo reaction. But it isn't vain or narcissistic to recognize your own achievements. It's necessary sometimes to applaud yourself for a job well done because it keeps your spirits up and makes your successes that much more enjoyable.

(It's semi-weird that horoscopes know so much about my life, when I don't even know what I feel sometimes).Before & After

Monday, June 20, 2011

i can still feel the lump

Throughout this whole, entire day it never hit me. Never hit me that I would most likely NOT see all the people I graduated with today, that I would most likely not see any of my close friends, and that I would not be here in about two months. It didn't hit me until the next-to-last hug I got from one of my friends which I've known since freshman year. Time goes by soooo fast, too fast for my liking. And the entire reality of it all just took me by surprise (took both of us by surprise) and we just cried on each other's shoulder. Technically, I started bawling my eyes out & so I made her cry. But, ugh...I just don't know.
I don't think I'm ready to grow up. I don't think I'm ready to go to college, I'm not exactly ready to meet new people. Put simply, I'm not ready to do anything. Maybe this feeling is temporary since I graduated today. And maybe a couple days or weeks from now I'll be super-duper happy I finished high school. I definitely know it's a time for keeping your old memories, and getting used to new beginnings, and I should just take it one step at a time...and I think that's what I'll do.

I'm currently getting texts from people inviting me to their parties, and I'm just not in the mood. Is it weird that I choose to stay home & watch movies rather than going out and partying today? I still feel like crying..

Thursday, June 16, 2011

the decision.

Currently debating on whether I should call my father letting him know I'm graduating & giving him a ticket, or just not telling him anything at all.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

he lends his coat for shelter..

'See, all I ever wanna do is be relevant, just tell me that I ever meant anything or that you could ever see me and you in another light. But it's like the dark women endures the darkest nights by the wrong man and mostly all of them have made you somewhat incapable of a first impression. What I do is I channel my aggression with no cable or antenna, just intentions to impress you, if capable (haha). Hoping that the material possessions can materialize to a better you:
Nothing I drive can drive you out of this frame of mind with such an ugly picture in it and,
Nothing I buy can buy me more time for your ears to tell your heart to listen to it.
A girl's best friend is what they say but, believe me with the right allegiance baby you gonna shine anyways, and everyday that goes by is a couple more lines in her diary. The day before is better than the present, so anyone presented in her presence endures these life sentences. There's no key for release, no reason to be around, her mind's in the clouds, she writes it all down, in her diary.'