Friday, December 31, 2010

ahh i love this

Florence and The Machine - Swimming

Phoenix - Girlfriend

i haven't posted any music in a while

because i like weird music
this song has no meaning behind it!!!!!!!! Just a title, relax.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010


Dear future husband,
I can't wait to meet you. I just want you to know that, where ever you are, I love you very much. And although we're young now, I hope you're thinking of me as well.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

I'm so official, all I need is a whistle.

There's a new Nicholas Sparks movie coming out! I was right for ordering my books! Yeeeeah son :)

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

that's the way this wheel keeps working

I thought I had nothing to blog about today. I always say this and somehow I always do have something to say/blog about. Today I looked sooo crappy. Well, not really, I kind of looked okay but not how I normally dress. All my clothes are dirty so I just had nothing to wear. So, because I am so smart (how condescending), I decided that I'm going to make something, and that's what I did.

I didn't make something from scratch. No, no. I took my long-sleeved jean jacket, it's kind of midway length, and I chopped the sleeves off! Now it's a vest. It looks really nice I can't even believe I made it look that way. So, I'm thinking of wearing it with:a shirt that looks somewhat like that (just the shirt) but it has another pattern of colors. I bought it at Urban Outfitters. Then I paired black leggings with that, and also my favooooorite boots which I have blogged about before that I bought at Forever 21. I love this outfit! Can't wait to spend my monaaaay :)

Also, my little darling did NOT come today :/ hopefully he, yes it's a he, comes tomorrow.


the moooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooon
is freakin beeyootiful

Monday, December 20, 2010

look at your physique

I'm so tired and I slept the whole day. I think I might stay up and watch the lunar eclipse, if I can even see it from my house.
Uh my little angel is in fort worth, TX. So, I don't think it'll be here by tomorrow. But, if it IS here by tomorrow, I would love USPS for ever!
I'm also gonna order some books from Borders soon, I don't know which ones. I would do so after I finish my homework. Which I don't feel like doing.

I digress!!

I'm gunna let u be leave u with what u believe but trust me when I say it will never be the same. I felt that way b4 u even came to realize what you were trying to say. I moved on way b4 you think and believe me i wont let it b the same

Oh..I just had to. You're gonna let me be? Okaaaaaaaay, why are you reading my blog then replying to it with a post? 'it will never be the same'? I've arrived at that conclusion decades ago, thanx captain obvious. 'I felt that way b4 u even came to realize what you were trying to say.' Does this even make sense? What was I trying to say? Wanna elaborate? 'I moved on way b4 you think and believe me i wont let it b the same'? You moved on? Lol, really? Then.........uh, answer this:
-why read my blog?
-why read my blog?
-why read it?
I mean, if a person has moved on and is completely okay and satisfied with where they are at, like you seem to be, why retrogress back to their 'past life' and read about someone they supposedly moved on from? Which is the sole reason why I changed my url, I didn't want you to see my posts. I guess it makes you the stronger person because you don't have to actually ask how's my life or anything like that because you read about it. But, then, I chose NOT to change my url because it's funny that you pretend you have no interest in me at all, and allegedly 'moved on' but in fact you haven't because, I can't stress this enough, you read my blog. And I'm not going to stop blogging, Christopher, so uh, if you're gonna type some BS to try to make me feel bad/sad or anything similar, look at yourself first & all your pathetic-ness.


Sunday, December 19, 2010


Ordered this beauty today (red one), can NOT wait until it gets here! Thanks mom!


See when I get the strength to leave you always tell me that you need me, and I'm weak because I believe you, and I'm mad because I love you So I stopped to think that maybe you could learn to appreciate me; then it all remains the same that you ain't never gonna change.
I guess I kind of was trying to say something when I posted the 'Messages From You' video....
God, they only thing I beg you is to please let me move fucking on. Please, just that one thing. Waste of my fucking time. You would think this would be easy but it's not. God just help me.

Saturday, December 18, 2010


Due to the fact that I was stuck in the house all day babysitting, I was growing boooooooored. So! There's nothing better than a culinary project right? I wasn't in the mood for cakes/muffins/cupcakes or anything with flour, so I decided coffee it is. I'm not a big fan of hot coffee, I lean towards iced lattes/fraps/iced anything, but either way I decided to make a latte, homemade latte. I added some honey too, extra foam delish!
Oh, and I also got paid today $$$$$$$$$$$$.

Friday, December 17, 2010

i have to

I hate people.
this is too funny:
SO, I go check on my Rutgers & Penn State admission status (not that I care) but just to see, ya know. And they got my SAT scores, and everything, except my fucking transcripts. HA! Wtf goes on in my school's office? I gave those shitz to my counselor the first week of November, there's NO WAY they can't be there by now. LOL! This is why I HATE my counselor, but whatever, there's no way I'm going to Rutgers because it's like high school all over again because majority of the seniors are going there, so that's a definite NO. Penn State was a back-up just in case UA didn't accept me....BUT, they did! My school is sooooooooooo careless!

Oh! And yesterday I got an application for a student credit card! I'm gonna apply for it online here come the debbbbbbbbbbbbttttttttssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Nono, I wouldn't do that to my mom, i'll spend WITH consideration ;) aaahh i'm gonna have a CC! :D

Ah, you have to be 18. No surprise there.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

woogity RSTPMO :)

Baby, you need to get things off your mind
I'm trying babe
If there's anything I could do, tell me please baby

This. is. annoying. You really need to say baby after every freaking sentence? No, not fucking necessary. Lol, maybe because I'm so full of anger (RAWR) but this makes me puke.


Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Messages From You

this song makes me cry. I don't know why, don't judge me :(
Why isn't Drake like this anymore??????????

Saturday, December 11, 2010

fucking horoscope

You might wake up feeling a little under the weather, perhaps too tired to go anywhere, and you'll want to stay in. Perhaps this is the best course of action for today. You may be tired and a bit stressed out, Virgo, and more vulnerable than usual to any bugs may be going around at this time. Drink lots of juices and get some rest. Tomorrow you will probably feel much better.


Friday, December 10, 2010


I really miss tumblr :/ I regret deleting my account. There were some really interesting blogs that I wanted to keep in contact with and now I can't. I don't fully regret deleting my account because people from school started reading it and that was way awkward. I might leave this for good and go back to my tumblr again. & keep it far far away from facebook. Tired of this, at least I shared some interest with my used-to-be fellow tumblrgang.

I'm gonna go make it now :D

Thursday, December 9, 2010


I really wasn't going to blog today as I had nothing to blog about. But, as I was picking out my outfit for tomorrow, I couldn't help but overhear my cousin & his girlfriend arguing. And when don't I have anything to say?! She sounded very upset, I could just feel the unhappiness in her voice. I heard him say that he needed time for things to change, and all this stuff.
My advice to her:
No matter how hard you think it might be, just let go. Everybody changes. Everything changes. Nothing stays the same BUT change. Even if it might be hard for you, create some type of distance. He's a cheater, he's cheated on you with several several girls. In fact, after he 'supposedly' hung up on you, he went downstairs because some girl was there waiting for him. And she has a boyfriend. And she knows that he has a girlfriend too. I don't exactly get the point of cheating, I mean you have someone already. If they're not who you thought they were, then just move on. There's plenty of fishes in the sea. But, my cousin, he's not worth your time. He's not about commitment, or honest relationships. The person you met and fell in love with is a stranger to the person that he is now, I'm pretty sure of it. He's treating you like a fool, as well as taking advantage of you because he knows you're going to be there when he comes back from his rendezvous. Let go. Even if it's little by little, personally, it's easier that way. And when the big bang comes when you've finally realized that this is the ultimate and complete END of a relationship, it'll be a passive bang because you've already created distance...

She's not going to read this, but just needed to get that out.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Never noticed how much I liked blogging.

Current status of my room. Now that my mom bought some new furniture, we had to stuff that huge couch in my room. So now my room looks sardine-like. Does that make sense? Anyways, I just made my sister & I some hot's so creamy! I can smell it :) it's really really hot though. No, nevermind, I just took two sips, and it's just warm. My sister & I bonded, yes. Earlier I gave her some honey on my finger and she didn't like it. WHAT? Honey is bomb. Maybe it was just my finger that made it taste weird. Who knows.

I'm DONE with my Anatomy work. Notice I didn't study though. I will study tomorrow, during some class. I have an early early chronic form of SENIORITIS. I don't feel like doing anything, I'm easily distracted (way more than I originally was), all I want to do is: SLEEP. Which sounds really intriguing right about now. But I'm gonna play this little cute app after and then maybe hit the hay, who knows.

I really feel like an air-head about the whole college thing. I don't know, I wasn't expecting news until way later in the school year...and I received it recently, so now I'm just like HUH? I still can't believe this is it, I'm going to college. Ok, not till a couple of months, but STILL. Oh Gosh, it's incredible. I can seriously say when I read the letter I just sat there, re-reading. My mom told my grandma before I even opened it that I got accepted because it said (on the outside) U are UA. I really had no idea, I thought it was just to let me know that they received my application. But, of course, after it sank in, I did my little paper dance, very hard to explain, it takes serious skill to do such a dance. And I did it. Because. I. am. Bomb. It came with this little car window sticker thing that says Univ. of A. (don't feel like typing the whole thing), I put that on my window because I don't have a car. I don't even have my license baha! Of course, I have to put in my enrollment deposit as well as the housing deposit and food meal and all that stuff, but that's l a t e r. So pretty soon (without you even wanting to) you're gonna be cheering for Alabama.

Oh, yeah, and the scholarships too.

Down corridors

My venting mechanism! Oh, how I missed you.
Hah! Anyways, I just got home from school with bad bad lower back pain, I should have never done sit-ups on the freaking floor with no mat or anything. Learned the hard way. On top of that it never crossed my mind to go to the pharmacy & now I'm too comfy to go out anywhere so I'm just going to wait until tomorrow. It also never crossed my mind that today is my dad's birthday. Well, uh, happy birthday father...

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

ok so elena & damon belong 2gthr

this song is obsessing. beware.
& if u listen to this in a car, it goes in your soul OMGG.


I have SO much do this week you'd think I would of taken advantage because I didn't go to school today. But, as usual, I didn't. I have an anatomy & physiology test thursday, but besides that I have to do the outline, sheets, study guide, and review sheet for that class by Thursday. Tommorow, I have probability & statistics homework due ALL of which I don't understand and it's SOO much, pretty sure it's over a hundred problems he gave us...don't get any of it (bad teacher). I have a 5-6 page paper due in History on Friday :) I Have Not Started! As well as a Chapter outline. And this chapter is sooooooooooooooooooo long. By the end of December, I have a research paper due in English, which I haven't started or anything like that. I don't know, I'm just so fucked it's amazing. And, of course, I'm here blogging like an idiot as if I don't have anything better to do. FanfuckingtasticO!

Monday, December 6, 2010

jbrgljwhrjgngashgjlkvrm HA!

Ok, so I really wasn't expecting this until March, April, or May

guess who got accepted?!?!?!

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Shouldve never made plans with two people

Friday, December 3, 2010


this new template makes me want to puke.
I just googled puke, because I google everything nowadays. So there's this word: emetophile. I believe it is an adjective, depicting an emetophilliac.
a sexual fetish in which an individual is aroused by vomiting or observing others vomit.

That's definitely intriguing.
When emetophiles put emetophilia into practice by actually vomiting, especially on a partner, it is called a Roman shower, after the supposed frequent induction of vomiting at Roman feasts.


Thursday, December 2, 2010


i WANT to do this to my hair SO bad, but I'm just too freaking punk to do so & my mother would kill me.


this deserves its own post.
oh yeah YANK THESE.


yeah that 'deactivation' was definitely temporary.
I have a lot to do, deff should not have napped for like 5 hours earlier, but I've just been like SICK tired everyday now. And tomorrow, I don't come home till who knows because there's a parade and I have to go. I don't even know what to wear, and I have to flat iron my hair. Blah. I really need to do some laundry. I really need to get started on my history project, as well as the outline. And I need to read beowulf & start my research paper. I need to finish all my anatomy stuff & take EMT more seriously.

I need an organizer, or a declutter-er person.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Deactivated my facebook account.
Feeling accomplished :D