Friday, December 25, 2009

boobooboobooboooboo :P

how does it feel to be a couple miles closer to him?
ahahahah <3

Monday, December 14, 2009

comment moderation

Today was a good day :)

My pants were extra tight cuz I washed em..they kinda shrank.

Next week, I'll be going down to GA. I'm only excited for the ride down there, not the ACTUAL staying with my aunt & uncle & cousin hehe. And down in Ga, I think I'll be closer to Chris lol. Let's do the math:
-OK, so from where I am to where he is is approx. 2198 (the least) miles. Driving, that'll take about a day & 10 hours, without stopping of course.
-& from Ga to Utah is about 1956 (the least) miles. And driving that'll take a day & 6 hours.
- 2198-1956=242
- SO, in Ga I'm 242 miles closer to Chris than I am in NJ.
I sound like a complete stalker now. . .

lol it was fun calculating :D

BUT xmas is next week & this is what my tree looks like:

COMPLETELY BARE! Looks like a glittery dessert, with nothing. How awesome?

Thursday, December 10, 2009

and i'm on my way to believing.

& that was the day that I promised
i'd never sing of love,
if it does not exist.
But, darling, you are the only exception.

leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream. . .

Wednesday, December 9, 2009


non supportive mothers cause hurt :(

Friday, November 27, 2009

Stomach speaking in tongue

Yesterday; Thanksgiving, family, friends, fun, good food. My stomach is cursing me out right now -_-. Seriously, I think I overdosed on the mayo in the potato salad. I think I overdosed on mayo, period. Today I ate some more potato salad (bad mistake) and ate like 2-3 sandwiches. No, not your original sandwich. My sandwiches consist of -> bread, mayo. Haha, so I ate potato salad WITH mayo, right? Then I ate sandwiches made of mayo, so now you know why my stomach is cursing me out.

i dont need no breath

got my net book, got my Happy :)

Sunday, November 22, 2009


"Looking At You Holding My Breath For Once In My Life Im Scared To Death, Im Taking A Chance Letting You Inside"

and i'm so glad i did :)

Thursday, November 12, 2009

lovey dovey

"Just bc your an AMAZING girl n i love you with all my heart n by far the best thing to ever happen to me. . I just dont think i could be any happier"

Sunday, November 8, 2009


SO on top of all the homework I had to do today, Christopher has been gone since the am and he's still not back AND I miss him, how great is that? Even greater is the fact that uh..couple days ago we weren't even together, and I was really serious about it. I'm glad we're back together NOW and I hope we go back to how we used to be. I love him. And I seriously can't wait til we're together TGTHR, no more long distance :)

--umm yesterday when I was at the mall I was gonna buy him RL boxers, so I looked them up online today, but instead got carried away lookin at the men wearing the boxers. . .how pathetic am I?

Never lie, steal, cheat, or drink. But if you must lie, lie in the arms of the one you love. If you must steal, steal away from bad company. If you must cheat, cheat death. And if you must drink, drink in the moments that take your breath away.

Friday, November 6, 2009

boeuf bourguignon. . .

I just finished watching Julie & Julia.. andd I did some research kinda about Julia Child and I found out that when she got married she barely knew how to boil an egg and she later became a cookbook author...she also had a tv show. Ah, if I can just learn how to cook. . .Well, at least I know how to boil an egg, and I'm not married yet, so I think I have a little advance on her.

Friday, October 30, 2009

this is too funny

smiling, all teeth in place.

crying, 2 teeth missing.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

caught my eye

awesomeness :) yeah boi

Wednesday, September 30, 2009


I LOVE MY BABE and I can't wait to be with him!!!!!!
hallmark has no ily ecards how ridiculous!

Sunday, September 27, 2009


i cant be there with you but i can dream
i cant be there with you but i can dream
i cant be there with you but i can dream
i cant be there with you but i can dream
i cant be there with you but i can dream
i cant be there with you but i can dream
i cant be there with you but i can dream
i cant be there with you but i can dream
i cant be there with you but i can dream
i still dream

Wednesday, September 23, 2009


im supposed to be doin hw now but hey i might as well stay up.

Why are there so many birthdays on the 20s in September?
Because, if you count, the day your parents made you was about 9 months before September, which was January or December. They must have been partying and drinking, considering it would've been Christmas and they decided to 'do it' for the New Year. 9 months later, you arrive :)

i just made that up lol

Tonight was awesome, I had soo much fun. Since yesterday was my bday, my dad n i went to dinner. My neighbor was there, her bday is today. And her friend was there too, her birthday is tommorow. Kinda weird right? What a coincidence! I ate mexican food, which i looove. The guy next to me convinced the bartender to give me some rum. So i drank that, he's like "it's too soft fir you." Im like "o deff" when really it was freaking hard to drink. N it was hot going down.

Then outta nowhere my freakin teacher from last year appears. I was looking the other way so she won't really notice me but she did so blah. It was kinda weird seeing her there cuz u kinda think teachers have no lives but i guess i was wrong.

The night was good. I still haven't gotten any presents yet :( tear tear
hey! let's make a list:
-ipod touch
-brand new eyes cd
i think that's it...if i think of something else i'll write it down...
peace outers yo!

Tuesday, September 15, 2009


she won't stop talking shit
jeeeesus christ
get me outta this house
im goin ballistic

Sunday, September 13, 2009

tv schedule yay :D

Gossip Girl
September 14, Mondays
9 pm

8 pm

9 pm

The Vampire Diaries
8 pm
8 pm

October 14, Wednesdays
10 pm

CSI: Miami
September 21, Mondays
10 pm

September 22, Tuesdays
8 pm

NCIS: Miami
September 22, Tuesdays
9 pm

Law & Order: SVU
September 23, Wednesdays
9 pm


OK SO instead of doing my homework, which is what I should be doing, I played some sims :) The town I made is called 'BlahGuh Springs' lol
this is 'me'

yay now i get to stress on hw tmrw that should've been half done today.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

week of september 7

im so proud of my baby. he's going back to school :)
yay :D

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

i have to finish hw

im tired and sleepy n hot.

School started and I'm already stressed out. One, because I get like tons of homework daily. And two, because I'm afraid of what all this work is going to do to me & babe. I mean, I know we can get thru whatever cuz alot ALOT has changed and we're still together, no matter what. And I really really thank him for that cuz not just anyone would take some of the risks like he is right now. But I think this would show if we can really get thru anything, like he said.

And though I'm taking these super hard classes im soo scared of failing them big time. Do I think I can do it? I dont know. If I take time on them n fully understand them, I think I can pass em. But I've never had such a weight on my shoulders.



i should finish my hw


Monday, September 7, 2009

3-Card Tarot Card Reading

my 3 tarot cards that came up today...

Current Situation
The High Priestess knows how to quiet her mind and trust her intuition and wisdom. The fact that she is showing up in this position means you are having a hard time listening to your inner voice. Everyone around you is chiming in, confusing you, telling you what they think you should do or feel. It’s hard to embrace silence when friends and family won’t shut up. The noise in your life is the problem.

Actions to Take
Strength is heaven on earth, the unification of our spiritual and animalistic selves. Strength controls the animal within us. It does not deny the animal. It acknowledges and celebrates it. The fact that this card is showing up in this position means you need to tame the lion, whatever part of you feels out of control. Is your sexuality getting you into trouble? Is your anger ruling you? Your appetite raging? Don’t let your impulses get the best of you; let your higher self take the lead.

Expected Outcome
The Hermit represents a recluse, someone who retreats from the world in spiritual meditation so he can eventually light the way for others. The fact that this card is showing up in this position means you’ll get some much-needed alone time. You’ll sit in silence, listen deeply and connect with God, the Universe, your higher self, whatever you want to call it. Once you do, you’ll be able to re-enter the world and help guide others.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

busy night

things that i need to do before sleep tonight:
-finish the follow up summer work on one of the 4 books (only have done 1) that'll take me about 2 hours at the least and it's 8:30 pm
-fix my closet
-sort all dirty clothes and get them ready to wash for tomorrow morning
-somehow make chris feel better?
-fix my room
-get clean sheets for bed
-put the clean curtains i already picked out on window
-take shower
wish me a great night. . .

Friday, August 28, 2009

i dont know tomorrow

i really really wanna see this. If not, the book will do. Matter fact, both.

Thursday, August 27, 2009


summer 09 was lame
didn't go anywhere.
ugh :(

Saturday, August 22, 2009

all you in do what it's

baby you can keep those thre3;
You might as well not even Speak.

1 month to go! Yay?

Saturday, August 15, 2009

the stranger called life

Women are like apples on trees.  The best ones are at the 
top of the tree. Most men don't want to reach for the good
ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt.
Instead, they sometimes take the apples from the ground
that aren't as good, but easy. The apples at the top think
something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're
amazing. They just have to wait for the right man to come
along, the one who is brave enough to climb all the way to
the top of the tree.

Now are like a fine wine. They begin as grapes,
and it's up the the women to stomp the shit out of them
until they turn into something acceptable to have dinner

Friday, August 14, 2009

a. little. weird.

i need the limited edition deluxe box set of brand new eyes.
asap, i will beg.

Thursday, August 13, 2009


If I'm a bad person,
You don't like me.
I guess I'll go,
Make my own way.
It's a circle,
A mean cycle.
I can't excite you anymore.
Where's your gavel, your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me,
Well sentence me to another life.
You treat me just like another stranger.
Well it's nice to meet you sir.
I guess I'll go.
I best be on my way out.
Ignorance is your new best friend.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Great Day!

Paramore's New Single!
Nip Tuck's BACK baby!!!!!!!!!!!
My day can't get any better!

Monday, August 10, 2009


Why didn't I just say goodbye.
It would be easy, not to start a fight tonight,
But with you theres some magic,
A spark I never knew,
Till today I regret it,
Not knowing, Not knowing,
There was never insecurity with us.
I was locked away inside your heart.
I loved unconditionally,
God must've been upset,
He threw me into love,
You cast the magic spell on me,
Sparks went flyin' high an...
I guess I should've said goodbye.
Should've closed that door,
Not said a word,
I guess I should've learn my lesson,
Strangers break hearts.
And throw away all my love notes,
The ones I spent hours making,
My love to you was worth breaking?
Throw it all away,
Cause I'd rather have spent my life not knowing,
If I could've just said goodbye.
And all those tears I cried for you,
None of it meant anything at all,
God must've been unhappy, cause I fell in love,
I couldn't handle it, lost control
I was so young, I was going be somebody,
I guess I should've just said goodbye.
I'm missin out on everything now,
I should've just closed the door.
And never said a word.
I should've just said goodbye.

it hurts but it may be the only way

here i am...not being able to sleep. .
crying my eyes out. .
big surprise.
I need a hug.
Someone to tell me"it's gonna be alright"
Even though that's a lie.
Just to know someone cares enough to be there for me. .
unfortunately, i have no body.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

i just wanna cry

It flows, what I hear no one else has to know..cause I know in what we have is worth first place in gold.

I can hear my mom complain about my dad..this time, though, she's right.

I seriously need a new life.



I guess we all do things we don't mean...what start outs as a little fun, turns into something serious. And all those little white lies come back to bite you in the end. Wishing, pleading, and dreaming about turning back time and not doing what you've just done. Feeling sorry for NO ONE but yourself. But then, you get caught up in your lies you can't tell what's really the truth. Just wish this never happened. . .