Clean the birds, or kill them?

In this post, I may come off as an animal rights activist and a hippie behind world peace but I'm not, I swear. Just look at those birds. Should they suffer from human mistake? Really, these BP oil people or whatever may plan to kill those birds. But WHY? What have they done? Nothing, nothing at all. So why should they be killed because of YOUR mistake?! I wish I had the job of cleaning those birds because it's a job I would love and enjoy. I'm sick of people in general endangering our world and this planet. It's the only place we've got-so far- and we should do everything possible to conserve it and prevent it from further decay. And, yes, I get we're going green and we're trying to produce less wastes, but we should've done this YEARS ago. Not now, when the ozone layer is thining by the second! I just hope we can rewind our effects on this Earth and it returns to it's "healthy" state. These things just upset me. . .

:( I'm not whining

I don't know what's wrong with me.
Why am I always tired?
Ugh

typical wednesday

So after giving in my applications, I'm at home, check my e-mail and I see this e-mail telling me about an SAT course & a job as an assistant counselor together at a local college that's like basically right next door to my high school. Hmm, sounds good. I NEED all the help I can get with the SAT because I'm planning on taking it again...October? One of the first months of the school year...I'm not sure. Besides that, you also get a job so it's pretty good. What I didn't read is if you got paid or not. I hope they do pay, though. And if I don't get any calls or anything from the jobs I applied to by the 15th then I'm gonna turn in my application and everything to the SAT course. And, it's only 10 kids they're accepting, so it won't hurt to at least try, ya know?

Also, my Orlando trip is coming soon :) Really really excited! I don't think I'm going to DR this summer because I've been hit with SO much summer work and I don't wanna over-stress myself, even though this year was pretty much me over-stressing -_-. But, yeah, it's my summer. I plan on enjoying it, it's my last summer before knowing where I'm going to college:D so I have to have fun. The place we were gonna stay at was changed and none of the girls I'm sharing my room with knows what's it called :/..maybe I should figure that out.

Tomorrow's friday! Well, today :) and there's like a fair/carnival/circus thing going on at the mall and hopefully i'll go. But, I need money -_-. THAT is why I NEED a job! Grrrr. Hey! Talking about the mall, as I was walking out these two guys were fighting LOL! It was funny..they were arguing about a phone or something. But, I couldn't stay and watch because my mom was rushing me.

Yeah. So much for my interesting day. Oh! And I had my hair like this today and everyone said I looked like Pocahontas lol. I don't see any resemblance. Maybe her attitude in that picture is the only thing lol! So, yeah, I'm tired, my throat hurts, and I'm gonna get something to drink.

yo gabba gabba yo!

mmm.
you can't always get what you want. .
nononono you cant.

let us decide when they play that last song

I dont know. I'm just gonna write to write..I seriously dont feel like venting for some reason...

My lower left side of my BELLY is starting to hurt again like last time. I thought it was finished with the pain -_- I swear my name should be changed to Painy or something, I dont know.

Besides what I said on my last post, I DID not hear all about his damn BBQ. Caught me by surprise cuz the dinner that I didn't go to he kept on rubbing in my face the fact that I didn't go. It was still pretty awkward with him cuz he walks me to some classes and such. I dont want to tell him to STOP cuz I'd hurt his feelings and what not and besides the school year is finishing...YEAHH :D

See how my mood changed :D

OK so on this thing I put all my info in and all my SAT scores and blah blah AND it said....
*drum rollssss*
*drum roll, please*
*DRRUUUUMM DRUUUM DRRUUUMMM*
Ok so it took my info and I put it against Univ. of Alabama and it said....
lol
um
yea..
i have a 98% chance of getting accepted. WHAT?!
YEA!!
ROLL TIDE!
that made me happy :D :D :D :D :D
I wanted to go to USC and it said i have a 20.1& chance of getting in..I dont want to go there cuz it doesnt have the major that I want so it doesn't matter.
I dont know what other schools i wanna go to I'm just sure about Alabama cuz 1)it's a good school 2) it has what i want 3) my fam is moving to GA so Alabama is right next door to it. I don't think I wanna go to college in GA, but I'll look into it....

Talking about school, i Think i might drop out of that AP class. I CAN NOT CAN NOT CAN NOT CANTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT STAND that teacher. He pisses me the fuck off! I cant even type correctly. Besides him ,I don't see what's so necessary about that class. It's a bunch of useless work and besides I heard he's retiring next year so, REALLY what's the point in all this work?! It's not like you're gonna pay much attention to it. And, also, I want to start working and I KNOW KNOW KNOW he's gonna give us a load of work. And thats why I decided not to take Physics 2 Honors. Instead I took probability & statistics and HOPEFULLY it's not so hard.

Talking about working, I got about 8 applications today. Not all of them are hiring but some are just accepting applications so it wouldn't hurt, right?

Ugh, I need my mani & pedi again :/

I just hope to God they don't expect me to work the week I'm off to Orlando because I seriously wouldn't know what to do.

Its kinda funny that big football school are hard to get into like DAMN.
Univ. of Florida...4.6%
Univ. of Texas....60.5% (not bad, but eh its Texas bleggh lol)
Boise State...98% (OK but really IDAHO?)
Ohio State...49.45( big EH)
TCU...97.4%(umm no. it's in Texas & it's christian)
BYU....48.3%(eh eh eh eh)

WHY AM I FREAKIN OBSESSED WITH FOOTBALL?!
WHY?
WHY?
WHY?!!!

Abcdefg

Blaaaaaaah. I BET I won't stop hearing about that damn BBQ tomorrow.

Farewell

Yeah. Well, I guess we're done. There are so many things inside of me
that I don't even know how to begin. I don't even know who to tell cuz I
have practically no one, forget you. We were dealing with relationship
issues before, issues that you just ignored considering your busy-ness. So
the issues just kept piling up until I couldn't take it anymore. And then
sometimes we would talk, and other times we wouldn't. It was very similar
to a roller coaster except we weren't buckled up or ready for the ride.
Daily, I couldn't take it. Daily, I did something to try to fix it, to try to fix us.
But the day after we still had the same issues over and over. You
were just so damn stubborn, so hard to deal with and you didn't do
anything about it and I was left like a dumb ass, just trying to hold on to
something that didn't even have a TRACE of being there. How could I
have been so dumb? Well, there was a point until YOU couldn't deal with
our issues and you tried to fix it as well. I thought, "O my gosh, this is it.
No more awkward-ness, we'll go back to how we were before, so in love."
But then I thought, "wait." I've been trying to fix us for how long now? And
now that YOU want us back, this one time, you expect me to fall into your
arms like the damsel in distress that you thought I was and that I'll never
be. Uh, no. You lost your damn chances that's for sure. Because I wasn't
gonna fall for it like I've fallen way to many times. And so I told you I didn't
want to be together. And, of course, you over reacted and treated me like
shit and called me crazy. And yes, Chris, I was crazy. Crazy enough to
deal with all the bullshit I've gone through with you, and I've told you that.
Now THATS what I call crazy. But what led me to say no was not only because of you. No, it
wasn't. It was also fueled by someone else, some other guy, which I don't even want to go into, but with you in the picture that wasn't going to
happen. So, you see, it wasn't only because of you that I didn't
want to be together. And I'm not blaming it on you because in your eyes I might be just a guilty, just as responsible for this. I don't know. I really don't want to find out. Not because I don't care but because I'm just so over everything, I'm blah. And I know your exes have left you for other guys and maybe I qualify as one of those exes but think back on how you treated them, think back on how they felt around you, think back if you
really listened to them, think back on how you showed them your love,
and think back on how you showed them you cared. I still love you. I don't
know if I'm necessarily in love with you, but i do care for you nonetheless.
I know for sure I don't love you like I did before because so much has
happened that I don't know if what I feel toward you is love or just pity at
times. I know two wrongs don't make a right, but you'll feel the way you've
made me feel these years we've known each other, the good and the bad, just so you understand.
Have a nice life.